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Friday, August 20, 2010, 8/20/2010 01:49:00 AM
what you don't know about me is
to me, there's nobody you can count on in this world but God. Honestly sometimes I don't even trust my own blood. but that doesn't mean I don't love them. See some people just doesn't know the difference of love and trust. Trust doesn't mean you love. Love doesn't mean trust. It's a BIG difference if you've been in my shoes. I totally can tell it!I always feel insecure but I tried to not. I am a quiet person and like to keep things to my self, yet I tried to be friendly! when you see me being talkative, making jokes, laughing out loud that's because I'm TRYING to be not what I am. TRYING to be what people want me to be! I am a loser for caring of what people say about me. Sometimes I even sick of my self, if you don't know that. I tried to avoid people. I tried to make them happy for not seeing me. I ALWAYS prefer to be alone! and YOU think aku ambung? n then say stuff about me behind my back. why? I'm always ALONE! what bad things that I did to you made you say bad things about me. WHAT? Can't I just be happy with my self and my own life? just MY SELF! I don't ask you to MAKE me happy! I don't even NEED you to make me happy! I even sick of pretending to be happy. Just so people like me. It's just hard. To be my self which people dislike and not to be my self so they like. I just wish I could meet someone like me. At least he/she could understand how it feels like to be this kind of creature! I effing PLEASED people!! Isn't that shame? and I believe it's something that people NEVER wanna do ever in their life. Don't I sound like a loser, to pleased people. I became a loser so people like me because I wanna make them happy by not saying bad things about me. So when I changed because I want people to like me, some say I'm stupid for doing it so. Yet you say you don't like me because of how and what I am. Sakit bah... Do you know where I can get Lithium or Antidepressant pills in Brunei? Labels: cobaan 8/20/2010 12:36:00 AM
I NEED ANTIDEPRESSANT PILLS! I NEED LITHIUM!! |
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