They call me Yvette.
Abode of Peace.
♥MARY-O. ♥colors. ♥photoshop whore. ♥KL. ♥Ne-Yo. ♥Piggy back ride.
IGS College.
National Diploma Computer Studies.
Lim Kok Wing is my dream.
Web Designer is my ambition.
Loves to love. Hates to hate.
They say I am a Family person, a Happy Camper, so well-known as Little Miss Slow and dot dot dot.
My fav foods are potato, seaweed, pandan flavor ice-cream, chicken and PB&J(grapes)! Those are Love!
Patience is my middle name but never test my ego.
I've had my lessons and I'm allergic to dramas.
No offense but I really don't believe in having a best friend especially girls.

"I am not a big fan of Liars"- Vanessa of Gossip Girl

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I got invited for lunch at my friend's place at GB today. Diane and I went there by cab. We had damn LAMB, suckaaaas! Haven't had those real foods for so long! =(( I MISS!!!
Momskii called me today when we're at GB!!! (actually she called me 3 times) She sounded sooooo happy! which makes me happy too!! when I was out for window shopping with Diane and Syafiq today, momskii called and asked where I am and what I'm doing. So I told her I'm out with them. and when I was about to say....out shopping... she interrupted and say, "clubbing? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA" Yeah she's actually laughing so hard when she says "Clubbing"! It was a real GOOD laugh! no kiddin! So I was like shocked! like how did she even know I went to the club??? hahahaha. and I thought she'd be like angry or something, but na'uh! She's actually laughed! and then I just laughed also with her, and say, "What? why would I, we would wanna go to the club in the afternoon? Kalau malam barangkali jua... hahahahaha." She's so funny!!!! We had a good laugh and conversation today! God! I miss her. Can't wait to see her smile, laugh and beautiful face. I wanna HUG her soooooo badly!!! =((

Aaaaaaanywaaaaaayyyy... so I had Nasi Beryani, Kambing, Ati Buyah and Sambal Udang. Yummmmmmmyyyyyyyy!!!! Syukur Alhamdulillah.

All in all, I had a great day today! I feel blessed! Thank you God. Thank you so much. and I can't thank you enough for all the blessings and of feeling grateful. Thank you Allah.

Salam.

Labels: butterflies, daily

I just got my boxes from momskii today!! Lets say early Christmas gifts from momskii and popskii! hehe So what are these? Printer All-in-One, a box of Indo Mee Goreng, a box of misc; rainboots, mee cups, choc wafer, snacks, cookies and many foods! Thanks MAMA and PAPA! ♥ ♥ I remember when I talked over the phone with mum recently, she asks "Mi goreng sudah mama bali. Makanan apa lagi kakak mau? nanti mama belikan." hehehe. Love you MOM! FOREVER! =')

Before that Diane and I had late lunch at Bodhi. A vegetarian restaurant that serves Philipino cuisines. They use tofu instead of meat and yet tastes like the real foods. gedit? gedit? *im actually sleepy already so my head can't think straight*

We went to Glorietta/Landmark crossing and I tried on this cute animal hats on! I want one!!!! :D




At night we're thinking of going to the club, couldn't decide which club yet.. until we got to Greenbelt 3.
Before that we picked up Syafiq(family friend) first who's first time come to Manila. So we brought him walk around Greenbelt chain. We went to Bed Club. It's called Bed cause the seats are like bed. The club was really loud and we can't hear what each other's saying! Then we decided to just club hoping. We had drinks at Bed's though.


Syafiq wants to go to sports shop, so we brought him to couple of shops that are still open. After that he wants to buy load and feels hungry and decided to cancel clubbing night and hitting McD instead! His treat! Thanks! :D Dropped Syafiq home and home we headed to as well. Now here I am wanting to read this
unfortunately eyes are not with my heart right now. Might just gonna sleep. oh btw.. this is my IC in the Philippines! Chekidot!

Labels: daily, event, outings, pictures

I just watched it!! What a sweet and cute movie! I loved it so much! It's not heavy and not to much drama! it's just okay and I loved it so much! PLUS the soundtracks! This movie somehow reminds me of Garden State.
There's a little funny part, but not comedy. Just funny. A little bit of sad, silly, sweet and cute part yet happy ending. Loved it!
I'd like to have this kind of relationship, even if you're in a long distance relationship; full of happiness, trust (even though your surroundings tell shits about your partner), understand and compromise with each other, sacrifices like going to the distance just for your partner just to see him/her (especially!), make time, EXCEPT the one night stand part!
I know this kind of girl(Drew Barrymore) in the movie is what most boys are looking for. She is just so COOL! like totally the coolest! She's your girlfriend and at the same time, she can be your friend too! They do stupid silly things together(love this)! and Justin Long is soooooooo cute! I love him! He's officially my fave actor! :D That face, that look, smile, when he talks, his eyes, it's just so hmmm.... indescribable! He wins my heart! and when he cries, I just couldn't see that tears falling! :(
All in all, Drew Barrymore and Justin Long could pulled off as a couple! They're so perfect! I knew I'm gonna like this movie because of the casts! I give a 8 out of 10.
This is a perfect movie for a long distance relationship couple. Totally!
I loved the soundtracks esp The Boxer Rebellion's! I am downloading it right now!! Did I tell you I'm into Indie and Brit Rock Pop now? Oh yes I am sucka! ;D BUT without ditching R&B and Slow Jams fo shizzle, yaaaight!
After this I'm gonna watch this movie again till I fall asleep and hopefully gives me a sweeeeeetest dream!


oh! oh! p.s. My mum is sending me a box of Indo Mee Mi Goreng! FTW! and Insya Allah gonna get my stuffs from Brunei tomorrow! AWESHOOME! Love Momskiii to bitsy! :)

Labels: butterflies, daily, misc

God do listens and knows what you are doing. God is around. Shukur Alhamdulillah. God knows what I'm up to. He knows that I've missed my parents so much! and I just got off phone from my parents, oh how I missed them and feel really happy to hear their voice. =')) I miss you ma and pa. Thank you Allah SWT. Thank you so much. I can't wait to see their face, can't wait to joke around with them, can't wait to be silly with mum, can't wait to keep my mum company, can't wait to hear mum's loud voice worrying/nagging about her cats, can't wait to shop with her, can't wait to EAT HER COOKED FOODS, can't wait to feel their presence and love; mom, dad and adek.

Thank you so much Allah. You are the only one who knows me really well. I feel grateful. Shukur Alhamdulillah. <3

Labels: butterflies, daily

I chose to love you in silence, for in silence I find no rejection.
I chose to love you in your loneliness, for in your loneliness no one owns you but me.
I chose to adore you from a distance, for distance shields us both from pain.
I chose to imprison you in my thoughts, cause in my thoughts, freedom is for me to decide.
I chose to kiss you on the wind, for the wind is gentler than my lips.
I chose to hold you only in my dreams, for in my dreams there is no end...

... SB.

Labels: butterflies, daily

As I sail with you across the finest oceans
On our way to find the key to our emotions
Together we will move the clouds to brighter days
Some people question what I say
Tried to break up you and me
But I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry
But I believe so strongly in you and I
Can somebody answer me the question why
You don't miss your water til the well runs dry

As I close my eyes
Sit back while reminiscing
Of when we used to fuss and fight but end up kissing
There may be sad and painful times along the way
But in my heart you'll always be everything and more to me
For I know this love between us is growing stronger
You can call me whenever from wherever
Just remember that
I'll be there
Through all the stormy weather
Us break up never
No we'll be together
Forever

For you are always on my mind
You are always on my mind
Girl you know that you
You are always
You are always on my mind
You are always forever

You don't miss your water girl no
But I believe so strongly in you and I yeah
Can somebody answer me the question why
Cause you don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry yeah listen
If you ever get the feeling
You wanna play around starting cheating, remember
You don't miss your water 'til the well runs dry


Have you ever listened to a deep passionate love song, but in your mind there's no one in particular but a question mark "who?" that is yet to be filled. I don't know if this is sad or vice versa.

Labels: butterflies, daily, misc

Few days ago I was watching Everybody's Fine, casts; Robert De Niro, Drew Barrymore.. For the first 15 mins of the movie, it gots me crying already! and I don't need to tell you how I was doing for the rest of it, right? You know it! I just couldn't stop crying!
The movie was about a father, Frank who has 4 grown up children. Everyone of them are living their own life and away from him. One day Frank wants to gather all of his children with some bbq and wine. So he prepares for things for the gathering and even buys a new grill and expensive wine. As night coming, Frank receives a call from his son, Robert saying that he couldn't make it to the gathering, then followed by 2 voice msgs which is from his daughters that as well failed to make it. (I cried at this part already!!!) As all of his children canceled on him, he decides to make a surprise visit to his children, then visit to his physician the next day and off he goes.. (more and more and more crying parts after this...)

After watching this movie, I miss momskii more and also for the following days through! I text her quite often but she don't get any replies and seems like she doesn't received any of my text. I don't know which network that fail though. But popskii who uses Prima line usually receives my text. I cried my self to sleep for 3 nights straight. Missing her too much! I still can't go on Skype smoothly as the broadband connection is PHAILED! ergh! Not all internet networks here are phailed though, its just this network connection that I'm using. There was this one of those night though.. I missed SB, but of course I missed momskiii more than I do to SB. ='(((((((( I miss her so much and her sillyness too! I miss how she's being so silly sometimes and when she's with her cats! arrrgggghhh... ok I don't wanna cry I better stop this now. =''''''((((((((((


Yesterday, was Eid Adha in here. Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha to all muslim and selamat berkorban. Diane (my malaysian house mate) and I din't know what to do on the day. Iren (Diane's guardian) who's room mate with Diane was on holiday so she decided to do some shopping at Divisoria. So off we went there in the morning. The place was crazy!! It was totally packed like totally yo! Divisoria is where you can find super bargain stuff! But the place is just crazy and be extra careful too. and for your own safety though.. don't dress to kill if you wanna go there. So, I only spent 1k peso which is about B$30 and got me 9 items; 2 curtains, a Lakers tee, 2 A&F tee for broskii, a carpet, a blanket and 2 big shopping paper bags. Yes you do need big big paper bags with zip when you come to the Philippines! That's just how the people do it here.


Today, Diane and I made a curtain for our bed! Yeppppsss! This has been my dream when I was a little girl! To dream a lovely bed like in the movie! hehehe Not as best as I dreamed of though.. but it's what I've been wanting for and I did it on my own with a little help from Diane. and so as Diane's. I kinda like Diane's more though but her curtain was a bit expensive by a hundred peso than me. So yeah. But I still like it nevertheless. Hopefully I can sleep well and have sweet dreams by tonight! hehehehe :D Oh! Maybe I should hang a dream catcher at the center of the round curtain. I'll take note on that! ;D

Labels: butterflies, daily, pictures

I have my babyboy Ne-Yo singing me lullabies right now. How lovely! ;)

Today just another unproductive day. Just lazed on bed with my laptop, phone, pillows and sesame streets blanket. Took shower around midday, went out with Diane(a family friend who stays with me here but in other room and she's a Malaysian) around 2++pm took jeepney to LBC and dvd shops. we bought 8 dvds, 1 series and costs us about 130 peso. really cheap! because apparently we think the cashier count it wrongly. Supposedly 100p = 4 dvds, 50p = 1 series, overall equals to 250p. We paid 300p and she gave us change of 170p! but Diane only realized and told me when we got back, so I told her it's our rezeki then.

So I watched some dvds that I bought today, Step Up 3, Social Network and Phobia 2. Lets review.
Step up 3 was good. and HOMAGAD! Allyson Stoner is sooooo grown up already and her hair is brown now? Remember when she was very little 5 or 7 like that in Missy Elliot's video clip, her hair was black! even when she's in Step up 1(i think). I remember how i feel so impressed everytime I see her dance back then. even now. but her dancing scene wasn't that much in this movie, not as I expected. But she's still goood as ever!
Social Network, it's much of a talking but it's quite good so far. hence, so far, cause I din't finish it. Not that I got bore, I just got distracted by wanting to watch Phobia 2. hehehe
Phobia 2, I've seen this movie in cinema last year. It's a really really good movie!!!! that's why I bought the dvd to watch it again. hehe. Every time I thought about this movie, it reminds me of someone who's just like me, he enjoys to watch horror movies and we shared too many stories and movie reviews together. :)

I wanted to go to The Amazing Race Asia 4 Viewing Party tonight, but that didn't happen. SIGHS. I wish there's someone who's same headed with me. Who likes to travel and explore. I just spent my Thursday night watching dvds. I can't be like this for a long time! I can't! I gotta go out! But with...? :(

As I've mentioned in my previous post, my connection is really really bad, so I use my phone to sign in my msn. I'm not really active with my msn thesedays except for some important people. After I signed in using my phone, I just put my phone aside and browsing through some songs on my iTunes, and I hear a chatting sound from my phone, I checked and it's SB. He's probably not the last person I thought who would chat to me, but you're just not that important to me as used to. I'm not hating, its just I want him be responsible and don't be a jerk.

I gotta admit I do missed him and I dreamed of him recently too. but I guess that's just it. You were The Man, but you don't have to be influenced by your friends too much. They are not You, and I don't want them. I want You, Yourself, just you being You! But you know what, if were destined there will be. For now this is it, I'm gonna leave you with what you want to be and wanna do. and leave me with mine. I'll always pray for your happiness, dear M. I'm happy if you're happy.

After 5 lines, 2 questions from him and 2 answers from me, that's about it. I'm sorry if I am not the same girl who used to care bout you too much. I still like you but we just gotta be away from each other maybe for now? maybe for awhile? maybe for long? If were destined we will be. =)

Yesterday, Barracudas vs Slingers and Barra lost! sighs. I missed watching it in Bru. I miss watching it with M especially. I miss how we screamin shoutin watching the game like there were just us two. I miss our world. :( Loh, kok pada curhat ngebahas yg tadi?? =/ hehe. So anyway, here I could only watch The Patriots's game but I don't really support them.. depends on what team are they playing with. Like last time, The Pats vs SMBritAma, and I supported SMB but too bad they lost. oh! oh! I am so proud of Barracudas when they beat the Pats down and that was their first lost! Crazy innit?! oh gosh! I miss watching Barracudas's game in Bru!! =(( Best of luck on this Saturday facing the Thais. Lets beat them and win this! Lets go Brunei Barracudas!! You got my love and support from all the way in the Philippines! mwuah mwuah!

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yello yello!
hows ma people tuuuuuin? I know it's been ages since my last post. lotsa thing happened within that. heartbreaks, dramas, tears, joys, BIRTHDAY, Eid, laughter and yknow the circles.

But oh well, here I am now.. in the asian ghetto country where APL.D.AP of The Black Eyed Peas, the Jabbawockeez boys mostly from, where the famous boxer and politician Manny Pacquiao and singer Christian Bautista are from!!!...The Philippines. Mabuhay! :D

Long story short, I'm here to further my study, Degree that is. It's been more than a month now. I thought of blogging on my first day here, but that din't happened cause of the unbearable busyness and stressfulness!

For the first 3 weeks here I stayed at a family friend's house in Greenbelt 2, dad accompanied me for the first week. the fourth week found a house to shared with 4 tenants in Onyx. Here I am in my green and wee bit pink room the same size as my room in Bru. which is good. :)

The weeks when I'm in Greenbelt was great, malls, bookstores, groceries and almost everything were just nearby. Now that I've moved to Onyx, it's a bit ghetto here but still safe cause there's this pare(s), they ride somewhat like a Becha(a public transport in Indo) park down the street outside my house, well outside my window precisely! They're like 24/7 public transport, so they act like securities like that. hehe. So can you imagine how I sleep and wake up every single day and night? it's a main street where jeepneys, motorcycles, tricycles, bicycles, cabs, bikes and other vehicles pass this house! oh, not to mention roosters! dogs too! and there was a fight once happening as well at night!

I remember when my first night sleep here, it was a total disaster, I was practically tired after assembling my stuff and all that and I thought I deserve a peace good night sweet dreams sleep, but that din't happened! what happened was, headphones playing soothing songs on ma head, eyes shut closed, tossed and turned, head was screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaming "I NEED A GOOD SLEEP, GOD!" Sad but true. Never had that kind of situation ever before. I thought of moving out though.. cause I don't know if I can stand this when my school starts. For now, its fine and I'm kinda okay a bit now. Cause what I do is, doing stuff until I feel sleepy don't care if its 12/1/2/3 am, when I sleep cause of tired, you know all that matters in the world is just a 'See ya later, alligator!!' hehehe. :p

I don't know if I should be telling about my journey during my application to the Uni and ol. maybe later when I feel like I wanna rage. for now, I feel content and I don't wanna make a sin by bitching about what actually happened. I feel like an angel now, so I must be good. :)

Time check right now is 1.15 am and I'm not sleepy yet. The connection is sucks and I need to change other network broadband. Haven't skype with the fam for more than a week, since I moved here to be precise. The bad connection is to be blamed. shish! =((

oh! oh! I'm actually out of words to say but thinking of more to write since I'm not sleepy just yet. So I'm gonna talk about my birthday this year! =D

It waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaassss GREAT!!!! It was combine Eid open house, birthday and farewell. I loved it and the people in it. it's a love love love! I got 2 failed surprises and 1 succeed! hehehe. it was really funny yet awesomest! Loved it, tho was fail! hehehe and the cakes were aaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllllllllllllll good and yummy! Thanks for those who came, it was about 40% who showed up, yip yip I know only few, but I am HAPPY! go check out my FB photo album for photos, you can see my smiles! =D Thanks IGS people, my old highschool divas, elementary school gengsters, the family friends friends group <3, the Jap cuties and more! It was really lovely! I love you guys to itsy bitsy!! Thanks to Yayah for the first failed surprised cake, to Ummi the second failed surprised cake and Fekree, Syukri and Noi for the success surprised cake and to Azmin who helped me take a video. Glad every one liked my Peanut Butter Blossom cookies! For those people who missed it, I missed it too. I don't have oven here, so I can't bake. Shame! =(( I'd really like to upload the vid tho.. but hai zon no. hail ting habot it leterrr na lang haaa..

Guess I'll end it here.. I will try to make this as daily basis. I TRY! so toodles and take care readers. ;)

Salam.

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Can't believe a guy that I thought perfect would fool me. There's so many things I wanna rage about, but I sigh and I realized this is an answer from God, so I forgive you and I hope you're not doing it again to other girls. Thanks for the memories. Swagger Boy aka HAHMAHIM.

Labels: butterflies, cobaan, daily

I've been wanting for this hairstyle ever since Cassie did. and then there's Carmen Electra, La La Vasquez, Mel B, Rihanna (mohawk), some models, and the list goes on...
I like Riri's mohawk, and sure I'd like to give a try but maybe not anytime soon or in 2 years time.
But FYI, it wasn't actually Cassie who started the shaving trend, guess who? Raven Symone!! oh wait, not to mention Britney Spears!
Thanks for kicking in the trend! I really love my hair so much! now I have 2 types of hair on my head. Bald and long. its actually fun having bald hair, I like to play with it. Just rubbing my hand on it. heheh it's fun.
As I have been expected, I have received so many OMG(s) and mostly are from girls. And the first person being honest and tell me that he dislikes it, is Swagger Boy. and I really thank him, I really appreciate that. cause he's being honest and tell it straight to me. I like him more than ever now. <3
But afterall it's done and it's what I've wanted so badly! and I am happy with it. Plus, it's just hair anyway. Don't hate don't stress. Congratulate and celebrate! =D

Thank Rully!!! <3

xoxo
Yvette with Love.
Salam.

Labels: butterflies, daily, fasean, outings, pictures

all boys and men are stupid! they don't deserved a brain! they are all asshole! Fuck you boys!
Lelaki semuanya, mana-mana pun bodoh! Tua, muda semua sama saja! Tak pernah bersyukur! Sudah kena padah nya baru lah sedar! Sudah sedar pun nanti buat lagi! You guys are too disgraceful to live on earth and to women! You guys are selfish! Did you ever think of someone who had your back for so many many years when you were at a lowest point of NOTHING! and when things and life changed, and you've became SOMETHING to people's view, you've started to neglect those people behind you that you can actually called as your backbone! think back! without them YOU ARE NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!
sudah bagi betis mahu paha pula! tak pernah syukur langsung!
not to mention PENIPU! and when we questioned you, you denied everything and you think you can get away from it?! n when you're sorry, you're only sorry cause you got caught you're not apologizing to people that you've hurt! BODOH! because why? because then you're still gonna do the same shit again! it's just the same fucking old story all over again! did you even think about the side effects to the people who you neglected?? all you can say is sorry but sorry may not pay the price of broken heart and scars and its side effects!
Pangkat & harta tiada maknanya kalau tiada kebahagian. no matter how wealthy you are or your level position. Without love from the heart and happiness, it's just nothing.


Whatever u give a woman, she's goin to multiply; Sperm, she'll give u baby. Groceries, she'll give u meal. CRAPS, she'll give u tons of craps!!!!


I guess I totally have lost trust in all boys and men. For the 2nd time in this year I have to rebuild my wall again. Fuck you boys!

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I like you so much to the extend that I think I love you, I think you're a husband material and I wanna marry you! BUT I decided not to / will not change a thing about ME just to impress you or make you want me and be your type of girl.

I feel good in my own skin, I feel alive for just being my self, what I wear, what I like, what I adore. Afterall they're not that bad. I know I will change my self for the best eventually one day. but not now.

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I have never watched American Idol until Andrew Garcia joined in! Basically I only watch it because of him! He is a youtube singer! I've recognized him since youtube. He made few covers with his mates AJ Rafael, JR Aquino, Christine Concepcion(his gf), Jenny Suk(AJ Rafael's gf) and Cathy Nguyen. The first video of em that I saw was Cover of Iyaz - Replay. Andrew also has few original songs such as Notice Me(my fave!), April Rush (feat Christine Concepcion) and more.
OMG! Didn't expect he could make it to American Idol and he's now one of the top 24! I am so happy for him. I'd cry tears of joy if I were there with him. TBH, I almost cry when I saw him nailed all the 4 stages he went through. aaaaaaahhhhhh.... I am so freakin happy!!! lookin forward to his performances.
PLEASE!PLEASE! do check out his youtube videos colabo with his mates. You should seriously! and please do vote for him whoever that could. Is it possible to vote AI from Brunei? I wonder.. I'd deff vote for him. fo sho!
So watch out for this boi, Andrew Garcia! He's gonna be BIG! :D much love from Me!!!!!!

Labels: daily

I'm in a mood on writing a long post. It's been a while anyway.
I have 3 major things in mind that I have yet to achieve.

1) Slim - I know this is ridiculous! but enough said. people, PLEASE just help me out! give me some moral support or whatever support that I can get to make me slim! please! hehe. I am so desperately need to be slim!
Don't tryna make me feel good by saying;

"No, ur not fat." - A girl would still think she is fat, no matter how gazillion times you're telling that she's not, until she's finally seeing the body/weight that she's wanted! Real talk son!
"You look just fine." - Thank you but no. cause you're talking bout the clothes I'm wearing that is fine. Have you seen my flabs?? Have you seen it shakes like jelly when you tickle?Well that's not jelly, its called FATS! Have you seen my big fat thighs? not to mention my arse!
"You know you look better than her(no names)." - yeah? like hell cares bout her? you know some people just dislike to be compare with others. Everybody wants to be them self, so stop comparing people with others. No matter how good they are than other people. If they can't accept your kind words, don't force. They know what's good for themselves. You know yourself and so are they.

2)Doing & Getting Degree - I want this so badly! I've cried for this too much now! I am serious. I am not being cheesy or anything. I am effing serious. I just can't be bother to do anything right now until I get this! Can't even bother to get a temporary job or whatever related to job. I just wanna get out from here, do my Degree, living an independent life, back home with handful of success and bag tears of joy. This is my dream! and I want this to become a reality. Amin ya rabbalalamin.

3) A man - This particular man is The man. He is That man. That man when you say to yourself, "I'm done searching." A one in a million kind of man. A man that you've been looking for all this time. A man that you wanna get marry with. A man makes you wanna think of settling down. I know its too fast for me to think of that way but I really did not saw it coming. It's this magical feeling that I have for him. It's really not a natural feeling that I ever had, it is indeed magic! I'm just not the chilly girl in love as I was. I am the shocking emotional to the core girl in love now. Obsessed? or whatever you wanna call me.. hey, have you really ever loved someone like I do now? Think again. Chasing pavements? I don't care cause I know I am chasing the right man. Don't ask me for a perfect one, cause I don't want a perfect world. and that man is... yet to be call as Swagger Boy.

These are my top 3 yet to achieve. It's not hard right? It's only 3. My top priority for now. It's only 3 Ezza, yes you can achieve it! Yes, you can. Have faith and believe that YOU can and God will definitely help you through all this. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Salam.

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kenapa seberapa keluarga harus melibatkan harta dan pangkat pasangan seseorang yang akan menikah? apakah itu penting??? bukan kah yg paling penting didalam sebuah keluarga itu adalah Kebahagiaan? kadang,harta yang melimpah tidak bisa menjanjikan kebahagian yang tetap.
Selain dari kebahagian, disitu juga adanya cinta.
Mungkin bagi orang yang mementingkan kekayaan dan pangkat, melihat adanya cinta disebalik itu?

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Ya Allah, I know I've done a lot of things I shouldn't do. Which I did not even wanna do but I had no choice and was pushed to do so. I am so sorry!!!
I really LOVE my friends, Ya Allah! and the things I did were because I love them too much! They're the people I really love! They had my back and were my lifesaver! I've tried my very best to not do it, but when I came to think that they helped me a lot back in the days to make me happy, so maybe this time its something that i had to do for them in return, just so they're happy.
And I hope my friends would forgive me cause I don't wanna lose another friend that I really love! Sorry I just had to do it, I ain't got any option but to do so! I'm helping YOU cuz I REALLY REALLY LOVE you, Dear friend.
Forgive all of the sins I did to my friends.
Forgive all of the sins we, me and my friends did.
Amin ya rabbal alamin.

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Gilaaaaaaaaa!!! Aku nda pernah rasa cemani. at least, lama sudah inda. palui kaliiiiiii...!!! sakit wah rasanyaaa... menahan rasa rindu ani aaahh.. buset eh!

miracle...
miracle...
miracle...
pleaaaseeee....!!

AKU GAY! OKEY!!! ='(

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sometimes, i think is it worthy to change my self? change my self to be a much better person. physically and emotionally. Have I been good so far? or bad?
I really wonder if I have been that bad as a person?
what if, there comes a man.. who'd changed me to a better person?
i don't really feel comfortable for not being my self. but there's a man who could change me to be a much better person. i don't know if he sees me as a good or a bad one, yet. but I know I am not that bad, right??

oh holy crap!

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Tidak ku mengharapkan perasaan ini akan datang sebegitu cepat.
Perasaan yang begitu dalam, yang telah lama tidak ku rasakan.
Perasaan yang sangat menyakitkan dan membunuhi ku.

Tidak ku sangka aku begitu lemah.
Tidak ku sangka aku bisa menangis seperti ini lagi.
Kadang ku tertanya sendiri, what the hell is wrong with me?

Ada apa dengan diri ku? kenapa ku begini? apa kah ini?
Begitu banyak persoalan yang bermain di fikiranku.
Kadang aku merasa gembira, kadang kau juga membuat ku merasa gila.

Meskipun begitu, aku tetap berdiri disini untuk bertahan, menunggu dan berharap.


Yours truly,
Ezza

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